The Process

The process... well Dictionary.com defines process as a systematic series of actions directed to some end.

When we first started talking about adoption I was very much against it. I felt like I wanted a biological child first. I very much resisted the whole adoption process as anyone can probably tell you. I was not walking around screaming it from the roof tops, but I was very open about my feelings on the subject. That is until about 2 weeks ago when my life totally changed. My Grandmother called to tell me that my 8 year old cousin, whom I have never met, was in Child Protective Services because my aunt could no longer care for him. My heart ached for this little boy, who we will call "P" from here on out for his privacy, whom I have never even met let alone sent a birthday card or Christmas card too. I really did not even know he exsisted until 2 weeks ago. Something in me changed. God really was talking to me and I needed to listen. My heart really softened to the idea of adoption. There are so many children out there who need good homes, and Jonathan and I can give a child a really good home. I found this Psalms quote on another blog and I thought it was beautiful: He settles the childless woman in her home as a happy mother of children. Praise the LORD. Psalms 113:19 I read the bible every night. At least a chapter or two. I have read this before, but I never put it into the context it was meant to be in. How beautiful and fitting for me right now.

After speaking with family members and case workers regarding "P", it is not reasonable for Jonathan and I to foster him. This is due to his circumstances and his parents. We have said that we would like to be contacted should he be put up for adoption, but the case worker seems to think that he will most likely be reunited with his birth father. That is awesome and I wish him the best. For now, Jonathan and I will resume with the adoption process.

This leads me back to that word process again. I have looked into 5 adoption agencies across Texas. 2 have told me they are not accepting new infant adoption applications due to the huge demand for infant adoptions. I narrowed it down to 2 agencies. One in Waco and one in Austin. I am praying for God to tell me which one is best for us. The adoption process has really been a pleasant experience thus far. I have started reading adoption books for families, and really started to be vocal about our plans. Please keep us in your prayers and check back often. I will update as often as I can. This is a first for me. I have never blogged about anything before. This should be a blast.